I have to finally admit that I’ve hit the wall.
What else can I say? My ability to cope, to soldier on, to muster my flagging energy and enthusiasm has dwindled to all-time lows.
It’s nothing specific. Nothing is different this week than it was last week or the week or month before. There’s no new crisis. […]

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I find myself already forgetting what we’ve done and when so far this summer, so I am going to take a moment to summarize before it’s a complete blur.
Week 1
I had all four kids home with me. I can’t recall much else other than that. Dex worked at home one day and of course had […]

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So freakishly weary this afternoon. Glance at clock. It reads 3:59.
Thoughts:

time to make coffee
in three hours, can get no-nap girls ready for bed
we can make it three hours
I think

Short time later, finally rinsing and filling coffee pot, glance again at same clock. It reads 3:40.
How can this be?! Twenty whole minutes have just been tacked […]

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Now that it’s been several hours, my back muscles are tightening into bands of pain. The ribs beneath are pushing back in protest in their tender, bruised state. Right elbow is whimpering for attention but hey, you’re only abraded, you’ll live. Right calf (ext.), the early troublemaker, is soldiering on. It’s the back. From neck […]

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I have been following the amazing trip of Jane and family as they journey cross country from west to east and back again. I am reminded of our own long, incredible journey last summer… the days in the minivan, the unloading and reloading at hotels along the way, the weeks with extended family… it was […]

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A broad heading, I know - what I want. But I have been thinking for so long about what I want for this family and I feel compelled to capture some of the key aspects, the less tangible things. Of course we need (want/need) a bigger house. Four bedrooms at least, five or six would […]

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We were going to wait until it was officially Father’s Day to present Dex with his gift, but the big brown truck arrived yesterday and if I’d made Edward wait FOUR WHOLE DAYS his head would have burst in anticipation (and mine from the pestering and pleading). So last night we plopped the box in front of […]

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I’ve woken up the past two mornings feeling a little disoriented. Something is different. Then I remember. Two nights ago, Dex and I pulled the plug on listing the house. The realtor was scheduled to meet with us Thursday morning to sign the listing papers but on Wednesday night, Dex and I finally had the conversation […]

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We are down to days before we are ready to list the house for sale. We need one more weekend to wrap up some details - paint touch-ups, cleaning odds and ends - and we’ll be ready. Except I spent yesterday and a good chunk of today trying not to freak out. There is the […]

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I am all over the place this morning. For some reason I can’t get my head wrapped around the day. I am off track and the trains (four of them, small, loud, demanding trains) that usually run wildly but in some semblance of order were derailing all over the place this morning. Dex suggested it […]

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